Journey towards Modesty

A glimpse into my pilgrimage for a more modest life

Oops December 12, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — teartaye @ 2:16 PM

So J (my 3 month old son) was eating and got a bit distracted so he wasn’t actually latched on.

Cue a sharp finger nail being dug into my nipple.

Cue me screaming OW.

Cue J starting to cry.

Cue me frantically trying to calm him down. It ended with me saying “I’m sorry, I know you’re sorry, can we start over?” I’m sure he didn’t actually understand but it worked.

We leave for Calgary in 3 days. EEEK!

J is in the six month size already. I swear someone stretched him out the past couple of weeks. No more baby chub.

I didn’t get any of my goals done this weekend, but at least today is a new day and I can try again. The dishes were half done before I had to stop to nurse… next is the laundry and after that is something from the million things I need to get done before we leave.


Goals December 9, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — teartaye @ 4:30 PM

I have a question for anyone bothering to read this: What do you do, when the best thing you can do for someone else is to take better care of yourself? How do you get over the feeling of guilt?

Yeah, I’m not depressed or anything…

Goals for this week:
~Do the dishes everyday
~Catch up on laundry
~Go for a walk everyday
~Goto bed by 10pm
~Read the bible a bit everyday.

Okay, maybe I am depressed. No mocking my goals allowed… Once I have a handle on the basics of my life again, that’s when I’ll start doing fun/growing things.

Next week’s goals will be incredibly different since we’ll be in Calgary, but starting in January I’ll do goals on a monthly basis.

And DS has definitely noticed the cat this week. We all sat cuddled up on the couch yesterday and J was “petting” Dusk for about half an hour. We have a wonderfully patient cat, btw.


Quick update December 8, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — teartaye @ 3:58 PM

Well, I can’t believe it’s been almost two years since my last post…


I moved. We live on the Sunshine Coast in BC now.

Wait, we?

My husband and I. And our new little baby.

DS will be 3 months old on Saturday. He laughed last night. He also grabbed my nose this morning when I asked him where it was.

He’s currently sleeping in his chair right now. Took me forever to get him down and I finally gave up and left him to goto the bathroom… came back downstairs and he was conked right out.


Reasons I don’t think my current inability to eat properly is due to hormones still:

~ My hair has started falling out again

~ I’ve had a migraine for the past week an a half. I didn’t have a single migraine the entire time I was pregnant

~ The muscles in my neck have seized up again. Goodbye Relaxin, you will be missed!


I am getting seriously tired of feeling nauseous after every meal I eat (well, every meal I eat after about 11am).  I bet I would have more energy if I could eat, too.

I can’t keep the pill I was prescribed down. Going to have to call my doctor about that.

We fly back to Calgary in a week. I am not looking forward to it… Almost passing out during take off was bad enough when I didn’t have a baby to look after. At least Joseph will be there to help this time. Hopefully my adverse reaction to flying was solely because I was pregnant. But, then again, we thought my nausea was because I was pregnant too!

I had a grapefruit for breakfast this morning, with a bit of sugar sprinkled over it. Took me right back to mornings at my grandparents’ house. That was back when my grandmother wasn’t crazy… I miss her. I know she’s still here and all, but I miss the woman she used to be.


Can’t wait to have ten days off. Still need to buy my grandfather a present. Taking pictures of all the birds that live/migrate through here and identifying them will have to wait for another year… since I have no pictures to work with. Oy.


I don’t know what it is about the Terry’s Chocolate Oranges, but I can never stop eating one once I start. Mmmm chocolate.