Journey towards Modesty

A glimpse into my pilgrimage for a more modest life

Conclusions and Resolutions January 5, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — teartaye @ 12:03 AM

So I’ve come to two new conclusions about myself.

The first is that I’m a perfectionist, and while the generalized label I’ve been aware of for a while, the realization that it’s inhibiting my blog posts has just hit me (sometimes I’m a bit slow). So, no more not posting because my ideas “aren’t good enough.”

I have a lot of posts floating around my brain because they’re not perfect. Hopefully “not perfect” doesn’t translate to horrid or unreadable. No guarantees though.

Second is that as much as I might put “rules” on my clothes, the feeling inside is what’s really driving this. I deserve this. My body is mine and I can chose who to show what part(s) of it. No one has the right to tell me that I need to walk around in a state of dress that makes me feel uncomfortable/naked.

In other words, when I say, for example, “my skirts must cover my knees” it isn’t because of this rule or Anna said so, or the bible says so, or whatever, but because I feel better dressed that way.  Better as in more comfortable, confident and lady like, not to mention safer and prettier. I will have to post a why-post soon.

As for New Year’s Resolutions. I do the whole word of the year thing, from Christine Kane.

This year my word is Integrity. From (I think if you type in “” that’s what it redirects to, but I use it so much I only know the “real” url…)

1. adherence to moral and ethical principles; soundness of moral character; honesty.
2. the state of being whole, entire, or undiminished: to preserve the integrity of the empire.
3. a sound, unimpaired, or perfect condition: the integrity of a ship’s hull.

So this year I hope to further develop/explore my personal moral code and to live by it. I also like the sound of being “whole” again, more on that in my next post.

I find it ironic, since last year my word was discipline. Which to me means doing what needs to be done, whether I feel like it or not. This year is figuring out what I should be doing (now that I can do it even if it’s hard to do!). I hadn’t planned that when I chose either word, either. One of those things that happen and leave me wondering, awed, how I could possibly think this life is random and unplanned.

As for run of the mill goals (you think I didn’t have any?) my three biggies are:

1. working out three times a week,

2. cutting down on chocolate and

3. sleeping better (ie going to bed and getting up at regular times and not oversleeping)


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